Monday, June 29, 2020

June News

Hello, friends! This is the first time in a long time I haven't had a poetry publication to share. This is partly because COVID has delayed publication for many of the magazines, but also because I haven't been spending as much time on poetry. I've been focused on finishing Book VI-- which, if you missed my last post, is now here!



Going Forth by Day is now available as an ebook on Amazon, Smashwords, Barnes & Noble, and other retailers.

I'm working on the paperback, so I will share when that is available.

I am also pleased to share that my latest poetry collection, Languages, First and Last, received a five-star review from poet Ann Christine Tabaka:


Read the full review here.

Thank you, as always, for reading, and I hope to have some new work out next month. Stay safe and well.



Tuesday, June 16, 2020

Book VI is here!

Going Forth by Day, The Order of the Four Sons, Book VI is here!

Purchase the ebook at Amazon and Smashwords. It is pending release in Smashwords' extended catalog, which will mean it will soon be available on Barnes & Noble, the Apple bookstore, and other retailers. 

Paperback is still in the works-- I will let you know when it drops.




Synopsis

“Our world is a lie.”

On Cerulean, the war between the Order and Starry Wisdom has turned into a standoff. Since Starry Wisdom has begun to deploy chemical weapons, Commander Emily Hayes is no longer able to send teams in to attack Starry Wisdom targets. Starry Wisdom, despite having taken Colonel JD Garnett and the Oracle Alyssa Calderon prisoner, are unable to proceed with their plans—they still do not have the fourth segment of the Staff of Solomon. Can the geomancers find a solution to counteract the enemy’s poison gas before Starry Wisdom manufactures a new segment? Or can the team come up with a new plan?

In Corbenic, things seem to have returned to normal for now, though Prince Leopold faces pressure from his father to marry. In Carcosa, things are looking more dire than ever, even with the harsh but capable MJ-12 Agent Aaron Vickers as the new boss of the five towns. Aid comes in the form of some unexpected allies. And back on Earth, things are also looking pretty apocalyptic—the sort of cosmic entropy that has affected Carcosa for decades seems to be leaking into Earth. Time and reality are starting to warp. The Order’s construct, the Field of St. Matthew, is in danger of collapsing, or worse.  

Four worlds hang in the balance—the fate of four worlds may determine the fate of all others. Synchronicities abound, the multiverse works in mysterious ways, and help can come when you least expect it.

Read the exciting conclusion to The Order of the Four Sons series, thirteen years in the making.


Excerpt
“A widow...” King Henri Sarpedonne echoed, stroking his beard. “I see. Under the new laws, the lady in question would be her own mistress and keeper of her own property. There is no male head of house to contend with. Should the engagement be broken, there would be no insult given.”
Lord Christophe Ecarteur inclined his head.
Henri peered at him. “Very clever, boy, I’ll give you that. And what of the lady herself? An acquaintance of yours, I presume?”
“Yes, Your Wisdom. Lady Rosemonde Salacia Charnabon Catreus. Her late husband was Lord Stefan Catreus.”
“How old is she?”
“Thirty, Your Wisdom.”
A frown creased Henri’s brow. “Thirty?”
“Still well within childbearing years and in excellent health. She had a son by Lord Catreus, a good, strong lad. Fourteen. He’s at the Lodge and I’m told he’s an exceptional student.”
“Hm. And what of Lord Catreus’ inspirer?”
“Lord Nicolas Busiris. He has no objections, Your Wisdom.”
The King gave Christophe a hard look. “If this is some sort of scheme—”
Christophe shook his head. “No scheme, Your Wisdom. You asked for an engagement, and I have secured one.”
“Not just an engagement,” the King barked. “I want him married before the New Year, do you understand? I don’t care who it is, so long as she can give him heirs. There comes a time when we can no longer ask the people to wait upon us; we must wait upon them. If I have to drag a woman in off the streets myself, by the Architect, I will see him wed before sundown on the thirty-second of Almatheion. Have I made myself clear?”
“Perfectly, Your Wisdom.”
“Then Lady Catreus is still your choice?”
“Yes, Your Wisdom.”
“Very well.” The King sat back. As he did, his face seemed to relax, shedding the royal mien. And just like that, he was simply Henri again, a concerned father. “When will you tell him?”
Christophe sighed. “I had planned to go there directly.”

* * *

Taking his leave of the King’s chambers, Christophe went to do exactly that. But as he reached the hallway that led to both his and Leo’s chambers, he found himself taking a slight detour.
Very quietly, he edged his own door open and peeked in. There was no one in the front parlor, so he stood for a moment, listening. He could just make out Madeline’s voice. Brightening, he made his way to the bedroom, where he found her, stretched out on the bed with little Angelique. The two of them were surrounded by toys—rattles, pacifiers, a jointed wooden bear, a stuffed rabbit. Angelique was kicking and gurgling happily as Madeline dangled toys for her to grab at. Catching the rabbit’s ear in a little flailing fist, Angelique stuck it in her mouth.
Christophe’s heart swelled at the sight of them, and for a moment, he simply watched from the doorway. Madeline looked over and smiled. Leaning back down, she whispered in the baby’s ear, “Who is that? Who is that over there? Is that Papa?”
Joining them on the bed, he bent to kiss his daughter. “Hello, little one. Hello, my beautiful girl. Papa’s home.”
Angelique grabbed his nose. He and Madeline laughed. Picking Angelique up, he cradled her carefully. She sucked contentedly at one of his fingers, eyes half-closed, long lashes sweeping her cheeks.
Madeline rested her chin on Christophe’s shoulder, so they were both looking down at her. “She is so good. So happy. The governess says she is a joy to take care of—hardly makes a peep.”
“Well, she is only two months old yet. I can still hold out hope for a little hellion.” Christophe stroked the soft red fuzz on top of her head. She was almost entirely her mother’s daughter-- her features, her mouth, the shape of her face, all Madeline’s. But her eyes were undeniably his, the olive coloring that was so distinct to old families like the Ecarteurs.
Christophe stayed with them for as long as he could. When he could put it off no longer, he kissed them both, rose, and went over to the door that led to Leo’s chambers.

* * *

Inside, one would never have guessed that it was a fine autumn morning. The curtains were drawn. A single crystal lamp burned at Leo’s desk.
Leo himself was also at the desk. When Christophe entered, ordinarily, he would be able to see Leo in profile, but at the moment, all he could make out was the top of his head, surrounded as he was by books, scrolls, papers, atlases and inkstands. More books were stacked on the floor around him. The only sound was the steady scratching of his pen as he wrote. His eyes were almost totally obscured by a pair of emerald glasses.
Christophe shook his head. Some men would drown their sorrows in drink, others in women. But Leo? Leo drowns his sorrows in books. He shut the door louder than necessary. “I’m back.”
Without raising his head, Leo said, “I have found the most fascinating passage in Hyperboreios’ journals. It contains alchemical formulae that no one has seen in over eight hundred years. When I finish translating it, I believe it will be most efficacious in manipulating the structure of crystal matrices.”
For a moment, Christophe could only stare at him. “I paid a visit to Lady Catreus.”
“Ah, yes. And how is Lady Catreus?”
“She is your fiancĂ©e.”
Leo’s pen did not even pause. “Very well.”
“That’s it? ‘Very well’? That’s all you have to say?”
“What would you have me say?”
“That you have more than a passing interest in the woman that you will be producing children with!”
“You wish me to lie to you, then?”
“No, I don’t wish you to lie. I wish you to respond.”
“I have responded. If Lady Catreus is your choice, then I’m sure she will make a fine wife. Make whatever arrangements you deem appropriate. I will agree to all of them. In fact, I need not be consulted. You know I trust you implicitly.” The sound of scribbling continued.
Outraged, Christophe strode over to the desk, yanked the pen out of Leo’s hand and threw it. It clattered against the wall and broke, spilling ink onto the rug. Then he knocked the stacks of books off the desk, kicked at the ones on the floor so papers fluttered about like pigeons. “Damn you, look at me!”
For a moment, Leo simply sat, arms still on the desk. Then, very slowly and deliberately, he turned his head and raised his eyes to Christophe’s. “Are you quite finished?”
His cold tone was only slightly diminished by the ridiculous glasses he wore. Christophe tore them off his face. “Are you?”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“Now you are lying.”
Sighing, Leo leaned back in his chair. “She’s gone. What do you want from me?”
“I want you to have hope!”
“She is a seer. If she said she is not coming back, then she is not. Accept it.”
“She’s wrong. She will come back, I know she will! How can she not?”
“Any number of ways.”
“Well, do not think of them because they are not going to happen!”
“Really? And how is it that you have gained this insight?”
“She will come back,” Christophe repeated stubbornly. “I know it. She has to, because I will it so!”
Leo looked at him pityingly, despairingly. “Christophe—”
“She will come back if I have to go Cerulean and bring her back myself!”
“Do not be absurd, old man. You have a daughter,” Leo stood up. “Do not even think of gallivanting off to some strange, foreign world that is currently under siege! Even if you had some way of locating her, which you do not; even if you had some way of coercing her to return, which you do not; even if there was some reason to believe that she is mistaken about her prophecy, which there is not.”
They were already standing close, but Christophe rose up so they were practically nose-to-nose. “She’s been wrong before. She couldn’t See that—that creature that murdered her own father! She is not infallible, I tell you!”
“You cannot compare a master magician who is able to make himself so thoroughly obfuscated that even the most talented seer we have ever encountered was unable to detect him, and this situation. It is not the same thing.”
“You’ve given up on her! Why would you do that?” Christophe’s voice turned pleading. “Why would you give up on this?”
Leo rested his hand on his inspirer’s shoulder, his tone softening. “There are many throughout the world who, when a person they hold dear is gone, would continue to set a place for them at the table in the belief that somehow, the deceased is going to return. I am not one of them. I do not have the luxury of giving vent to grief and losing control. Moreover, there are certain realities in life that must be faced.” Christophe started to look away. Gently, Leo cupped his cheek to turn him back. “Do you remember how Endymion would look for James everywhere? Do you remember how disconcerting it was when he would call me to his bedside, searching for remnants of my grandfather in me? I am not going to do that. I am not going to hide from this.”
Christophe shook him off. “She is not dead yet. Stop speaking as if she were.”
“There is no reason to assume that.”
“I think you’d feel it.”
“In my experience, one does not feel the life or death of another simply because one wishes to, or because one is close to them. Unless, of course, one of them is a seer. And the one person qualified to offer such an opinion has already spoken on the matter.”
All at once, Christophe rounded on him. “I’ll tell you why you are so quick to give up on her! It’s because you do not feel that you are worthy of it! That’s it, isn’t it? I know you and your self-flagellating ways! You think this is somehow your fault. You think you’re not worthy. You would never let yourself love or be loved in such a way.”
“That is no longer relevant.”
“It is completely relevant. If we found out that she was dead and you knew where her body was, what would you do? You would go get her and bring her back here, wouldn’t you?”
Helplessly, Leo shook his head. “Your point?”
“My point is that it matters. It is relevant-- the love you have for her is relevant! It doesn’t stop being relevant just because she is absent.” Christophe turned away, both hands to his head. “I can’t stand you like this!”
For a moment, neither of them spoke. Then, very softly, Leo said, “If we knew where her body was, right now, this instant . . . yes. I would have her brought back to Corbenic--”
Aghast, Christophe turned to him. “You would have her brought back?”
“-- and I would have her buried next to her father.”
“You have given up on her!”
“Christophe—”
“I won’t have it, Leo! I won’t have it!” Christophe’s voice rose. “You can’t give up!”
“She’s GONE!” Leo shouted over him. “If I have no hope, it’s because she took it with her!”
Breathing hard, they backed away from each other.
For a moment, Christophe hung his head. It didn’t seem possible that he could look any more anguished—until he raised it again. When he spoke, his voice was almost too soft to hear. “You’re not the only one who loves her, you know.” 

Leo closed his eyes. “I know.”


Don't miss the bonus excerpt I shared in April.





Sunday, June 14, 2020

Celebrating Health in the Time of COVID

Yesterday, we celebrated Kidney Day. Eight years ago, Patrick received a transplant from a wonderful, selfless family who’d lost their daughter. We named the kidney Sidney, and Sid’s still going strong. It’s an odd year to be celebrating a health milestone. Even when it’s not 2020, health is something that we are always cognizant of, that we never take for granted. We survived three years of dialysis and all that went with it—disability, blood transfusions, shingles, hernias, pain, countless nights at the hospital, innumerable medications (some more helpful than others), bankruptcy, and foreclosure. (We did home dialysis, and just to give you an idea, home dialysis cost around $12,000 a month, and the dialysis machine was $65,000.) Recovery from the transplant took another year. So it’s hard to see people being so flippant about their own health and the health of others; it’s hard to see leaders who are more concerned about shareholders than they are about the health of non-millionaires.

This is something we are never not worried about. Antirejection medications are not a joke. They have to be taken on time, every time. They suppress the immune system which makes Patrick more vulnerable to contagions. Also, a transplant is not a cure—it’s only a treatment. Sidney could eventually give out. Medical advances have opened up more options, so we hope he never has to do dialysis again. I really, really hope we never have to worry about a ventilator for COVID.

So it was a quiet celebration at home, with take-out, chocolates, and binge-watching Killing Eve. We take a moment to reflect on the young woman whose passing has given us our own lives back, as well as improved the lives of at least fifty people. We reflect on her family, total strangers, who we can never repay. We appreciate everyone who is doing their part to protect each other. Thank you.

The day after transplant surgery, June 2012